Sad Heart

I have always maintained that I am not going to blog when my heart is sad. A sad heart is not a sunny-side-up heart. Today is an exception.

I think I have to face it. Chielo is gone. For many months now I have long pretended that she is just ignoring me and we just have our first ever "tampuhan". I thought my missing her would somehow go away after a while. I has been four months now and I still feel sick about it. I guess, it is because I feel so sad this week that I missed her more. So I say, "Dear God, I miss Chielo very much, please allow me to write her a letter and pretty please tell her to read it." I have tons of letters for Chielo already. Many times in the past, I just kept myself busy with my little girl, and now work.

Chielo has done many things in my life in a very short while. I  met her in January 2007 and lost her in September 2011. I thought I never really lost her, that she is just somewhere out there. But no, I think I lost her. It has been very difficult to admit that. I haven't cried since. I really want to cry. I really want to move on. But I just couldn't. I miss you so so so so much today. I do not want to burden you with the heavy things in my heart but I know you wouldn't mind.

By the way, Federer lost at the Australian Open. Nadal lost too. You know better who won. And the only thing that makes me thankful about you not following tennis anymore, it is that you will not have a chance to root for Djokovic. I hope you have a sunny day wherever you are! I love you!

Safe House - Denzel Washington

I am getting too excited about Denzel's movie (of course being his fan). Nowadays, there are not much movies to look forward to. Thanks for another Denzel movie.

Disclaimer: got this photo online.
 I have nothing to do with how Denzel looked like there. Ugh!

Survival of the Fattest!

Charles Darwin was wrong. Scares all the fats out of me. This is supposed to be funny. But please be scared!
Oink! Oink! Oink! Bring in the angry birds!

I love you on a Binary Day!

Happy Anniversary Mahal! Today is November 11, 2011 (11-11-11) which makes it extra special because we are also celebrating our 11th Anniversary. Like 11 years on 11-11-11. It's a binary day, except that it's not. That pesky 2, hahaha. But it is fine, it is binary enough. I don't know what it was like on November 11, 1111. I guess binary system was not yet discovered at that time. In any case, this is one good day to play with binary and pretend to be nerdy!

I love you on a binary day like today. It is so special to remember 11 years ago already dreaming of Sofiya Methuselah. More so special to hold her in my arms 11 years later. I love you Daddy. I love you Fiya. You both make me feel so special.

Birth Announcement

Hi Everyone! I have not been able to post anything (errm do i need to stress the obvious?). I wasn't good at blogging while being pregnant. At the 3rd trimester part, was even difficult. I was waddling the whole time! And for all those difficulties plus blogging, breathing was my priority. So there, i think i have made up a better excuse.

I am introducing our first born -- our little girl whom we fondly call Fiya.

She was due on October 10, 2011 (40th week) but she came a week earlier. At exactly 39th week she came out via C-Section, 7lbs. Her voice was the only sound to hear inside the Operating Room. When she came out, she cried very loud and I heard the anaesthesiologist saying, "hmm its a girl" - which was almost a whisper. Like everyone already knew she is a girl. =) At that instant, I immediately fell in love with her.

Her name. Almost 11 years ago, we already decided that our daughter will be named Sofiya Methuselah. Her Dad graduated from AB Philosophy and has always loved philosophy. We tweaked Sophia a little bit and came up with Sofiya. I call her Fiya,Sophie, Sofi plus all the other endearment in the world. Methuselah came from a biblical name whom i really like since. Sofiya means "wisdom" and Methuselah lived the longest and i'd like it to mean "long life".

We love you Fiya. We hope you will grow in the Lord and live your name. Thank you Lord for such wonderful gift.

It's a G I R L!

It has been 6 months and it was just like yesterday. Finally, I had the long awaited ultrasound. I did not understand anything explained to me, except that she is a she. Just exactly like what I dreamed of. =)

True to my form - i was in my best element. Shopping Mall. We bought her crib and a few clothes. I'm just excited and the feeling was overpowering. I couldn't think of the present. My mind is set in October already. Like she is arriving tomorrow.

Hurray. I love you my girl. Your presence in our lives makes us more closer to the Lord. You are such a perfect gift from heaven. I always thank God every time i think of you -- and I always think of you. Love, Mom and Dad. xx

Pregnancy: 9 weeks

It’s been a while. After Cebu, I was busy with being pregnant haha! Thank you Lord for such great blessing =) Super thankful. I am looking for this book on Pregnancy (with journal) and so far, I am failing. =) Let me know where I can find one.

Some pregnancy bits I'd like to share:

Morning sickness. Well, I am not really a morning person. Right now I am experiencing a nauseous feeling every afternoon like 4pm onwards until I hit the sheets. Weird, but even afternoon sickness is actually called “morning sickness”.

Coffee: I so miss coffee. I feel like crying every time I smell the aroma from the coffeemaker. Even 3in1 coffee makes me feel crazy.

Huge Pre-Natal Vitamins. Whoa, almost the size of almond seed. I need a lot of concentration in order to take all of them.

Skyflakes and crackers. I suddenly find this long forsaken food as super important. Mood-saver!

Milk. I don’t really hate milk but this overdose of milk is just absurd.

Love is all around me. This is the best thing I receive the whole time. Love from husband is really overwhelming (in a very very wonderful kind of way). Thank you Babe! You make me feel super =)

Unknown - Liam Neeson (2011)

I have been waiting for this movie for the longest time and its not even shown yet in the local cinemas. I am just a little bit disappointed.